Since it's end of year and everything, I'm allowed to make 10,000 posts.

I went through my blog yesterday... first day of school, fights, parties, last day of school, holidays and... you get the idea. I was so sure of myself that this year... I seriously hate it but when I read everything again, the hatred was gone. All the jokes that were made in class, getting told off, getting all pissed, getting a C in Geo, hanging out with my friends, going to Penang, going to JB... it has been a wonderful year.

I learned lots of new things, I went through stuff that I've never been through, I've been asked about my responsibilities, I've been told to control my temper... this year has been different. Every year is different so I really can't say anything about that. Me and my bro started fighting a lot this year... me locking myself in my room.

When I think about it again, I'm like... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

I remember trying to not speak because I was so pissed with everyone and when I did, I got told off. It's so hard. And then I went through this phase where I don't listen when I get told off and instead, I daydream. Then there was this one time when I felt useless, I felt as if me dying would be best for everyone. After that, I got this talk about how suiciding is a sin. LOL.

So yeah, I think went through stuff that I thought I wouldn't go through... I couldn't believe I thought about dying, I think I prayed to God once. Only this year... only this year. Right now, I'm just hoping that this wouldn't happen again next year except for the good things, you know.

I think this is my first official 'end-of year' speech.